Being a fresh graduate is a challenging phase of life. Tho not everyone facing the same challenges. Some are lucky enough to get a job right away, and some need to wait a bit longer, need to struggle a bit more. Yet finding the job right away does not mean the struggles end. Struggling is still there, going in a different way; like adjusting new environment, new friends, new boss and so on. For some people, it even means starting a completely new life. It is a new phase of life indeed.
And how about mine?
Apparently my new phase of life hasn't come yet. I am in that group of people who are still struggling to get the job.
And what's the biggest challenge?
For me, it is about managing hopes. I feel like this is what I mostly struggle for, while you once being in the middle of a recruitment process, that's when you start to put expectations.
I wasn't really bothered by these things at first. I was actually feeling grateful of having more time to be spent with my family in the first months after graduating. These 4 years of college and all the following activities had taken my time pretty bad. But then by now it has already passed several months, yet it is still counting..
Things are getting worse when the time keeps running and the recruitment process getting to an end and there you go: going through some hard time of managing expectation. The more you passed the selection, the more you go to the next step, the more you're closer to be selected, the more your expectation grows. This is just the rule, human nature, right?
I was always telling myself on how I really should pasrah and just give everything to Allah. Let Him decide the best thing for me. But sometimes it's still so hard to be completely ikhlas, more over when it comes for me to accept the fact that I am one of the two candidates left for the final recruitment process, and I didn't got to be chosen. (And to make it even worse is the fact that the company is actually the one I'm really longing to)
No, it's not a rant. It is actually a self therapy for me. Writing never fails to comfort me, it always makes me feel better.
Tho this writing is not a cheerful one, at least this makes me start to write again - after almost one year, Finally I could get my fingers typing words here. One grateful thing, no?
-So sorry this post might looks more like a mess. I'm writing with mixed feeling here and there.
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